Live With The Lights On

Earlier today I went to my daughters school to help out in the Library. I do this every other week and enjoy it very much. At the end of the class I heard my daughters teacher telling her how disappointed she was in my daughter for something that was really silly and some that she and I have discussed before. I could feel myself getting angry with the teacher. I spent about two minutes feeling angry, then I moved to, "okay, so I'm angry...what is this teaching me about myself?" I realized that what this was teaching me is that I do want more for my daughter. I have not been feeling like this school is a fit for her in so many ways and have already take the steps to find something that will be a better fit for her.
Then the Drama Queen in me came out. I thought, "who can I call to bitch to about this and how unfair and crazy this all is?" That is when I noticed the real discomfort. I have asked my higher self to nudge me when I am acting out. There was the nudge. "Yes?" I said to myself.
What I came to was that while my anger was okay and it is great that I am learning about myself through all of this, I was missing a very important piece. That WE ARE NOT VICTIMS.
I am meeting with the teacher today (that was already planned) and I was ready to go in with my victim all ready to shoot with both barrels. Well, maybe not that bad, but the feeling was there. The point is, is that when we are angry that is okay and important that we look at why we are angry. What do we want the situation to look like. It's important not to stop there. We need to come out of victimhood for the anger to be productive. What can we do to make it better? Do we understand that most people, places and things happen and they really do not have any to do with us. And most people do not set out to make us unhappy. Most of us have an agenda, whether we know it or not, a lot of the time. This agenda has everything to do with getting our needs met and is not about making others angry or uncomfortable. This is why it is important that we make sure our agenda is keeping our side of the street clean and being responsible to our choices and our life. I look forward to this parent teacher conference in just about an hour! I am opening my heart up to love and will be praying for the highest and best good for all involved to rein. That is all I can do...and then call that other school and see if they take new kids mid year!! lol
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