Imagine being asked to practice what I preach!

I called a meeting with a few people at my daughters school. There is some confusion around her. This does not come as a surprise to me as she is a "new" child, a kind of crystal child and then some! It is usually hard to for the average adult to make sense out of this kind of child. They are interesting, that is for sure. Wise beyond their years, highly intuitive and sensitive to most things.
I talked with these people, including her teacher. She is having anxiety and that is causing school to be difficult for her. I knew this meeting would take a lot from me, a lot as far as what I have come to understand about myself, my growth, my wounds and the world. I knew I needed to stay out of the victim role and use my anger in a productive way. I knew that my wounds could creep right in if I wasn't fully awake. I had prayed and meditated. I had processed and journal- ed. Yes, this was a big meeting and I was prepared.
All was going smoothly. I went in and was exactly the way I had hoped. I let them know that I wanted, for all of us to work together to make this experience better. (Meanwhile, I am making arrangements that are better suited for us, another school).
Then I heard the teacher say something that was so false I almost thought I couldn't have heard her correctly. It seems that another parent had misheard something I had said (I am still wondering how) and went to the teacher all upset. She apparently said some colorful things about me. And here I thinking, "Well, no wonder my very intuitive daughter has picked up on these feelings that her teacher simply does not like her". I did not say this. And yes, I was angry. She was projecting onto me what this other woman had concluded about me. I felt myself getting defensive. I did not react. I simply said that I was sorry if what I had said had been so misunderstood and that what was heard was not true for me at all.
The teacher was not satisfied and seemed happy to defend the mindset.
Here I was with my broken mirror looking me dead in the face. I asked myself, "what about this is mirroring something back at me that is so painful for me to look at?"
I realized that this reminded me of different scenarios when I was younger. I did not feel understood and I remember clearly being the scapegoat. I was in pain then, and I was in a familiar kind of pain now. OUCH!
As I prayed myself back down the tree I had run up I had to remember to thank Source for answering my prayers. I realized what I had prayed for was this, "God, I ask that you are ever present in this meeting. I ask that you and your angels work with all involved on finding the best solution for my daughter. I also ask for my behavior to be from my highest place. Please help me to heal old wounds instead of allowing them to control the meeting. If they come up, nudge me! Thank you!" My prayer was along the lines of this, and clearly, they were heard.
I am not a believer that life has to be so painful to learn lessons. I am sure there are so many ways that healing can occur with this type of situation. I also understand, at least for myself, that it is really about being aware. Once I am aware it's as if a light has be cast upon the shadow and it no longer has to have the hold on me that it once did.
I still have some things to process. I am not sure if this mother is open to me wanting to open up a dialogue about this matter. I know that is what would make the current situation feel better for me. I am not sure if that is good for her. I will continue to pray and soul search for the answers to this one.
As far as these old wounds? They are still there but I know a big chip came off of it today!
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