Making Time

I find myself in a place that so many of my clients come to me in- EXHAUSTED! Here I am, a single mother, with a part time job and a company of my own that I started barely a year ago. I feel some days that I am so tired, less on a physical level and more on the mental level, and I can see how challenging it feels for some people to make time to care for themselves. Did I mention that I am newly separated and going through the motions of that as well? Yes, I am tired, exhausted really. I have also needed the energy to process, digest and feel my way through some very uncomfortable things. I have been uncovering a lot about myself. Things I love and strengths that I have. I am also finding more that I would like to change about myself. I am happy about that because I am here to grow and evolve more than anything else. Evolving and self reflection- yet another thing that takes time!
With all that I have going on in my life right now it would be easy to make excuses if I wanted to. Excuses as to why I do not have the time or energy to care for myself, to stop and spend time doing what feels good. However, I find that with a little more effort than usual, I am able to create time for yoga, meditation, journaling and time to be playful. These are activities that are all too often seen as practices. Sure, that is what they are, but that is only a partial truth. I feel that they go beyond a practice and become an integral part of who we are and are really life savers.
It is through fully immersing and integrating these activities in my life and really being a part of who I am rather than what I do, I am afforded the luxury of enjoying my life no matter what is going on around me. Sometimes are easier than others, but I have found that when I am right with myself, I am right with the world. In this time of heightened stress and exhaustion, I am laughing, playing, enjoying life and most of all, so in touch with how wonderful life is. How everything is really as it should be. I am hopeful, there is no impending doom in my life as there was for me years before. Before I was able to make time for myself I wondered through life with the sense that "it" was not going to get better. I know now that the truth is, "it" always gets better. Then, there is another "it" that seems worse and that too gets better. It is me that is okay as long as I chose to be. And I only seem to be really open to this CHOICE when I have made the time for myself. To stop whatever I am doing a couple of times each day to do a little something that reminds me to be alive and in the moment. Take time to make time. That is the biggest gift that we could ever give ourselves. And like I always say, when we heal ourselves, the world heals too.