Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Out with the Old and In with the New!

I get it! I get it! That's what this is all about. I have known for a long time that I need to get rid of the old to make room for the new. I have pondered this with my new life now for a while.
I AM in my new life and wondering what of the old still lingers?
The heat is out in my house and it's really, really cold. A chilling 48 degrees. My bedroom, on the other hand, is warm with all the fun my daughter and I are having camping out! Dinner in bed, breakfast in bed, sleepovers with a lot of giggling and snoring dogs. I am only half happy about the new furnace coming tomorrow.
I came home last night wondering what my room would look like. We left the dogs in my room so that they could keep warm. The thought crossed my mind as I was leaving the yoga class I had taught. "What if the dogs went crazy in my room and chewed up my stuff?" I rushed to my moms to pick up my little one. We laughed and wondered the whole way home what we would find when we got here.
Deep breath, ddeeeeeepppp breath, Katy. There is nothing in there that can't be replaced. I cracked the door so that I could asses the damage slowly. White stuffing everywhere! Oh God, I thought. Did little one's favorite stuffed animal get it? Oh thank God, no. Molly the Maltese is fine. Whew!
Then I saw a piece of fabric. Is that the Calvin Klein comforter that was folded under my bed?
Then a big smile came over my face, and joy fulled my heart as my daughter stood with her saucer like brown eyes. I knew at moment that the Universe always does come through, in little ways and in big.
I have been continuously asking for the last of my old self and my old life to be washed away from me. This was a big part of it. This was the comforter I shared with my ex-husband. I had wondered what to do with it. I didn't want to use it because of the memories, but wasn't sure what to do.
And there it was demolished, destroyed and my dogs' tails were just wagging, almost like they were winking at me! They knew they had been given the divine assignment of helping me move on.
The little things can be harder to spot because we grow so accustomed to seeing them there.
The furnace's control panel is out. There was a disconnect in allowing the heat in. The ball bearings were off, out of alignment. Everything in my life always represents a message.
There goes the rest of my past. As I am being rewired, put back into alignment and the old being demolished, I am freer and freer everyday. My heart is lifted feeling that no matter what, I am always being watched over and supported. It is my job to ask for help and take it where it is given. Enjoying the little blessings that are around me and propel me further into the life I know I am here to live.

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