Cali bound 2

Here I sit in Baltimore, another rainy day. But today it's a spring time rainy day...kind of beautiful actually. The smell of spring rolling in and some light thunder in the distance. I do love that very much. The candles burning in the gray room I'm sitting in, with some Hindi music on. Tea and my animals. A great morning indeed.

I love being here in this moment right now and yet, in my heart I can feel the San Diego sun beaming within me. It's amazing to have lived somewhere my entire life and to feel as if I don't belong here anymore. It's sort of ungrounding.

The blessing is that it has caused me to seek refuge within even deeper and find the Truth about where I need to be more grounded anyway; within my soul.

I keep imagining this big globe in my mind and feeling as though this Universe is a big playground. A place for us to celebrate all of the delights that come from being in these earthly bodies. I see an adventure ahead and I feel adventurous. People keep asking me if I feel scared and answer is; no, not at all.

It's amazing how life is when I know that all though little makes sense, things seem to be making more and more sense in their lack of logic. As I follow my heart and my intuition I feel free. I feel freedom like I have not known before.

I feel a sense of peace that is new to me. I have felt at peace before, but nothing like this. I have been taking long walks around this neighborhood, which happens to be the same one I grew up in. I am always stumbling upon the houses of friends I used to play with in elementary school. I walk through the paths where my life long, best friend Jaime and I walked every day. I think back to our middle school conversations and giggle. I think about what I would have though of who I have become if I had a birds eye view at 12.

As I move across the country, I leave behind the things that hindered me for so long. It's not that a geographical change is going to change me so much, where ever we go, we take ourselves with us, right? However, this move is symbolic for me in so many ways. It stands to represent all that I am and all that I have become so far. This move is my platform to evolve more deeply into my purpose...into my humanity and into my spirit simultaneously. And I'm not clear on what many of those things will look like, thankfully.

My biggest work is to continue to listen and step, listen and step.

The house is selling and in June we will be headed out. At that time we will look for a place to live and settle into our new life. Near the beach, near a dog beach and surrounded by new friends. I am looking forward to showing up, clear and ready to take on these new projects.

It is time to release all that no longer serves me. Defenses I took on as a child that overstayed their welcome. They are long gone now. I am excited to start new and to expand.