Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Moving Right Along in the Law of Attraction

I am a big fan and a big believer in the law of attraction. I do not enjoy when people are so dogmatic about it though. I think that is one area where some people get easily caught up and it's understandable, but not the way I like to operate. I will say though, that in my life it is just so powerful. I find that when I relax and allow my life is wonderful and comfortable. There truly is something about relaxing into life that is so freeing. I have found myself relaxing into some of the "issues" I have been dealing with and they seem to be really taking care of themselves. I have become so aware that these so-called "issues" are just a reminder for me to get back into alignment with who I am, that's it! That is what they are here for and what they are telling me.
I ask regularly for help integrating that into my life and I always get the help I need. When I am in a place of centeredness, everything is great. That is what I think is so amazing. The power of our perceptions. I am always amazed that on a day where I am feeling fully aligned a lot of things could happen and I would move right through. A day that I am less aligned that same things could happen and that just might be the thing to throw me off. Then there I am again, asking for help. I happen to think that is part of why we are thrown off from time to time as well. To remind us to ask for help. Whether we are asking a person or our spiritual guidance, we are asking. It is in the asking that a lot of who we are and what we want are realized. That is why asking, in my humble opinion, is so important.
The law of attraction is allowing me to relax and allow. To be in my life. To connect me with the Source. To keep me aligned with who I am. It always reminds me to think of the bigger picture. That the same Source that supports the birds in the sky, and makes flowers bloom so perfectly is the same Source that is supporting me, that is supporting us. Nothing sits by a flower and says, "come on, what's taking you so long!". It allows itself to unfold exactly as it should and when it should. Detached from the outcome, it just is. It is relaxed and allowing. We really are supported by that same Source. There is no need to worry, we are already fully cared for.
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Imagine being asked to practice what I preach!

I called a meeting with a few people at my daughters school. There is some confusion around her. This does not come as a surprise to me as she is a "new" child, a kind of crystal child and then some! It is usually hard to for the average adult to make sense out of this kind of child. They are interesting, that is for sure. Wise beyond their years, highly intuitive and sensitive to most things.
I talked with these people, including her teacher. She is having anxiety and that is causing school to be difficult for her. I knew this meeting would take a lot from me, a lot as far as what I have come to understand about myself, my growth, my wounds and the world. I knew I needed to stay out of the victim role and use my anger in a productive way. I knew that my wounds could creep right in if I wasn't fully awake. I had prayed and meditated. I had processed and journal- ed. Yes, this was a big meeting and I was prepared.
All was going smoothly. I went in and was exactly the way I had hoped. I let them know that I wanted, for all of us to work together to make this experience better. (Meanwhile, I am making arrangements that are better suited for us, another school).
Then I heard the teacher say something that was so false I almost thought I couldn't have heard her correctly. It seems that another parent had misheard something I had said (I am still wondering how) and went to the teacher all upset. She apparently said some colorful things about me. And here I thinking, "Well, no wonder my very intuitive daughter has picked up on these feelings that her teacher simply does not like her". I did not say this. And yes, I was angry. She was projecting onto me what this other woman had concluded about me. I felt myself getting defensive. I did not react. I simply said that I was sorry if what I had said had been so misunderstood and that what was heard was not true for me at all.
The teacher was not satisfied and seemed happy to defend the mindset.
Here I was with my broken mirror looking me dead in the face. I asked myself, "what about this is mirroring something back at me that is so painful for me to look at?"
I realized that this reminded me of different scenarios when I was younger. I did not feel understood and I remember clearly being the scapegoat. I was in pain then, and I was in a familiar kind of pain now. OUCH!
As I prayed myself back down the tree I had run up I had to remember to thank Source for answering my prayers. I realized what I had prayed for was this, "God, I ask that you are ever present in this meeting. I ask that you and your angels work with all involved on finding the best solution for my daughter. I also ask for my behavior to be from my highest place. Please help me to heal old wounds instead of allowing them to control the meeting. If they come up, nudge me! Thank you!" My prayer was along the lines of this, and clearly, they were heard.
I am not a believer that life has to be so painful to learn lessons. I am sure there are so many ways that healing can occur with this type of situation. I also understand, at least for myself, that it is really about being aware. Once I am aware it's as if a light has be cast upon the shadow and it no longer has to have the hold on me that it once did.
I still have some things to process. I am not sure if this mother is open to me wanting to open up a dialogue about this matter. I know that is what would make the current situation feel better for me. I am not sure if that is good for her. I will continue to pray and soul search for the answers to this one.
As far as these old wounds? They are still there but I know a big chip came off of it today!
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Self Esteem- A Broken Mirror?

One of the greatest lessons I have learned in my life to date is how much we. as human beings, take on the roles that others put us in. How often as children have we heard things like, "boys don't cry", "don't get too big for your britches", "ladies don't do that"? How very sad. Then many of us get to be older and wonder why our lives are not working out the way we had hoped. Why did we end up in a career that is just a job? Why are in relationships that do not really fill us up? Why do so many people resent people who are happy?
What I have seen through my practice and in my own life is that from the time we are little we are told, more or less, what we "should" do, and who we are "expected" to be. Very few people were raised with permission to be who they are and express themselves fully.
This is not be because our parents, teachers or grandparents were out to get us, it is because it is how they were raised. It is also about their comfort level. If we are able to easily express ourselves as children, like so many children do, we hit on topics that are uncomfortable and taboo at times. Then we are told to be quiet or put in our room. And for others, maybe it wasn't so dramatic.
We were simply raised by people themselves who never realized that who and what they are is really up to them, a CHOICE. They then pass that along to us.
This is what I refer to as a broken mirror. Each time our feelings, desires or interests are squelched it is like a rock has been thrown at our mirror of self perception. After a period of time, the mirror gets cracks and holes in it. The good news is that the person looking in the mirror is still there, whole and complete. It is the reflection that has shifted, not the nature of who we are.
This is the foundation to the ailing self esteem in so many people these days. Knowing on some level that we deserve and want so much more, and not knowing how to reach for it. Or, not knowing that we are allowed too.
I encourage everyone to take an inventory of your life. See where you would change things, anything. Who would you be? What would you be doing? What would you be wearing?
Remember, when we heal ourselves we are healing the world. This is a service to not only you, but to humankind.
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Thursday, November 6, 2008

YAY! OBAMA!

Can I just say that I am over the top happy about Obama winning? I am not only happy that he has has won, I am happy about what this symbolizes for us. This means that the shift is really happening. The shift that so many of us are talking about these days. Here is further validation that we collectively have gotten our vibration high enough to accept a president who has heart and deeply cares about us. I have never been more proud of the American people than I am right now.
I did not vote for Obama because of the color of his skin. With that said, I feel that his having a darker shade of color than mine is the icing on the cake. Not only have we elected someone who is genuine, we have made a big leap in chipping away this horrific "spell" that the states fell into so many years ago. Thinking that people could be property! Slavery, that word alone makes me want to weep. This is a giant leap for the recognition that we are all one race. I enjoy the different colors of the world. There is so much richness in culture, so much we can learn from each other. But at the end of the day, we are truly not different or separate at all.
Obama is a symbol of hope. A symbol of the good that is headed our way. Of course this will not happen overnight, but the wait will be well worth it.
My deepest desire is to see us as human beings understand that we are in this together. We do nothing alone. We do nothing that does not effect the world. There is not one place on planet earth where we could ship people we do not like and not impacted by them. We are all different strokes on a canvas, but we are a part of the same painting. Not one stroke is waisted. Not one stroke does not belong. Collectively we make the painting more beautiful. Let's embrace that.
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Monday, November 3, 2008

We are always being looked after

I find that so many of us, no matter how centered we are, can fall into the pit of feeling like we are alone. At present, the world is going through a major shift. I see this as somewhat of a birthing process. Or a storm that is clearing away all the unnecessary debris and deadwood to allow for the new blossoms to smell more fragrant and for their color to be more vibrant.
Still though, how do we know there is a bigger picture? How do we know that we are really being looked out for? I want to share a story with you that is a part of my personal experience.
One night as I closed my eyes to go to sleep and I noticed that there was a spirit with me wanting to deliver a message. I asked her name and she told me she was Karen (please note that all names have been changed to protect the anonymity of those involved) and she had a message for Sally. She gave me the details of her death, I had a good view of her to know what she looked like and then I asked what her message was. She told me that she wanted Sally to know that she was around her and saw the pain she was in. She wanted Sally to understand that part of her life's purpose was to be an example to Sally and others like her. Karen wanted Sally to know that there was a different way to live. Karen had a drug problem which had lead to her brutal murder. I got all the information that she wanted to give to me and I called Sally's sister Elise the next morning. Sally was someone I knew very little, however, her sister and I were close. I explained to Elise that I had a visitor the night before and asked if this person sounded familiar. I gave her the details surrounding her death, some odds and ends that made no sense to me but would make sense to Sally. Elise knew who I was speaking of and said that Sally had been very rattled when Karen died in the late 1970's. I asked that this message be passed along to Sally and told Elise that if she had any questions to please feel free to contact me.
About two weeks later I got a call from Elise telling me that Sally had been very emotional about this contact. That all the information was accurate and she felt really good hearing from her. I always feel deeply emotional about being able to share this gift with others and have it effect their life. I got teary eyed knowing that this really effected her. Then Elise went on she said, "Katy, I have not told you the amazing part of this story. I told Sally when Karen made contact with you. Sally explained that she was crying and hitting an emotional and spiritual bottom around 10 pm when Karen visited. She was praying that she would be given a sign that showed her that she was being looked after, that her prayers were being heard." I began to cry. While the work that I do never surprises me, it always creates a sense of awe.
I share this with you to help you understand that we are always being looked after. If you are ever feeling alone in this world remember this story and know that you are not ever alone. There is so much here that we do not see or understand. We are more cared for than we could ever know. There are so many beings, not to mention Creator, that are behind the scenes helping us along the way and carrying us when we need a lift.
The other piece of this is to never lose sight of prayer and its power. Prayer is the single most powerful tool there is. Prayers are always answered. The answers may not always come in the package that we expect, but they are heard and they are answered.
Know that you are so loved and so special and if you need anything, all you need to do is ask.
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Saturday, November 1, 2008

Live With The Lights On

Conscious living take practice and takes a gut level intention. So often we stumble into situations where life hands an opportunity to be fully awake and so often we do not rise to the occasion. We tend to lean on the old tapes and allow that "old" self get into the drivers seat.
Living consciously requires us to identify what our old tapes are playing. What are your beliefs about yourself? What is going on in your life right now that is causing you discomfort? It is within these life situations that we begin to understand and then unravel if we so chose, what our beliefs are.
Our discomfort is an indication that what we are doing, saying or experiencing is not congruent with the True Self that we are. It is the little self that is running ragged and wreaking havoc.
Then what do we do when we begin to understand that our discomfort is not around to show us how people, places or things make us mad. This is happening so that we can begin to fully understand and then express that part of us that longs for expression.
When we are in this state journal, meditate, pray or talk. Get silent. Pray and ask, "what would you like me to understand about myself through this? Wait for an answer, it will come. You will have an "AH-HA!", you will dream about it, or you will even over hear a conversation that almost seems like it meant for you. Sometimes you will hear a song on the radio or playing in your head with a message that feels like it is for you. You will know, just be open. The answers always come and they do not always come in the way that we would expect.
Discomfort in our lives is simply a way for us to get to know who we are better and allows us to come into our authentic selves more fully. Once we open up to the lesson in a situation and see past the illusion of a problem, a solution arises or the situation takes care of itself.
Watch this in your own life and you will see. We are not here to be in pain, we are here to be in joy. A part of getting to that joy, that light, is to clear away some of that shadow. The shadow is an essential piece of who we are. It is designed to walk us into the light.
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